Good night last night. H is off the breathing tube and her lungs are great. Her tummy is feeling better and the infection in her blood is undetectable. She’s awake and bossy. 🙂 God is good.
Berkeley flew home to see her. When she woke up and saw him, it was a sweet moment. She cried when she saw him (compare this to glaring when she saw me because I wasn’t here when she woke up – something I fear I will be paying for for many years to come).
We are all overwhelmed as we go through this. Overwhelmed in thought and feeling. God’s grace is amazing. So is the generosity of friends, family and strangers.
A personal reflection: I have always had a perfectionist personality. A manifestation of this is that I only feel loveable when I feel like my “performance” is worthy of love. This has made it difficult for me to receive love from many people over the years while at the same time seeking affirmation from those who didn’t really love me. Walking through this valley is breaking me of that at another level. The outpouring of love we have received from 100’s of people who really do love us has engulfed my heart. I’m slowing learning to receive.