Blake Update #3

Good night last night.  H is off the breathing tube and her lungs are great.  Her tummy is feeling better and the infection in her blood is undetectable.  She’s awake and bossy.  🙂  God is good.

Berkeley flew home to see her.  When she woke up and saw him, it was a sweet moment. She cried when she saw him (compare this to glaring when she saw me because I wasn’t here when she woke up – something I fear I will be paying for for many years to come).

We are all overwhelmed as we go through this.  Overwhelmed in thought and feeling.  God’s grace is amazing.  So is the generosity of friends, family and strangers.

A personal reflection: I have always had a perfectionist personality. A manifestation of this is that I only feel loveable when I feel like my “performance” is worthy of love.  This has made it difficult for me to receive love from many people over the years while at the same time seeking affirmation from those who didn’t really love me.  Walking through this valley is breaking me of that at another level.  The outpouring of love we have received from 100’s of people who really do love us has engulfed my heart.  I’m slowing learning to receive.

23 thoughts on “Blake Update #3

  1. So happy things are turning around. There are a lot of people on your side of this battle. You’re one tough cookie, Heather, you will get through this. Thoughts are with you and your family. I am glad you are helping us keep up on you through this site. Take care pretty lady.

  2. Hi Blake!
    Glad to hear of Heather’s improving condition and thank you for sharing your personal reflections on how God is working in your life through this event.
    Take care and God Bless!

  3. We rejoice in your good news! We thank God for the sign He gave us all, that He indeed has again shown you/us that He will never leave nor forsake her in her needs. Praise God for increasing our faith again!
    Please tell Heather we think you deserve mercy too! (LOL) … And give her our love.

  4. I am so thankful for His faithfulness to carry you all through this storm. I pray His love continues to overwhelm you all. I’m sure he looks at us in the same way Heather looked at Berkley! Some love is just too high and wide and deep to describe!

  5. heather
    We are in Naples and it’s in the 80s. It is so beautiful that I know God is here.
    You are in in our prayers and I know our California girl is smiling right now.

  6. Heather and family… Your love creates such a Divine connection to all. We are honored and blessed by your journey as you demonstrate unwavering commitment to each other, courage in the journey, and offer love through all of this challenging time, Sending love and light and healing. Laura Spinner

  7. This is great news! Thanks for sharing w/ us Blake. We perfectionists understand part of what you describe…but truly can’t imagine the vulnerability you all are experiencing. So glad for God’s faithfulness to you. We see His loving kindness (hesed) in your journey…praying for good days ahead.

  8. So glad to hear better news! Also so glad Berkley was able to come home — I am sure that was so needed for you all to be together! I have been praying for Berkley as I am sure it is hard for him to be so far away at this time. God is with all of you during this, as are so many people praying for you each day! May you all have more good days than bad ones ahead.

  9. Blake, you are loved for YOU and how God designed you–not for anything related to “performance.” That took courage to be so transparent, which is very endearing. I think you take after your amazing dad in that regard. I am so very sorry for what you are all going through at this time. God bless each one of you with courage, strength, trust and HEALING for Heather. And may God be glorified!

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