“How much can God give me if I am not open to receive? When I hold on to a problem, a fear or a resentment, I shut myself off to the help available to me. I will loosen my grip on something today. I will let go and let God.” From “Courage to Change”

Have you ever been amazed at how someone facing a life threatening illness seems to have unwavering perspective on life and what really matters? Lest you think for a moment that I am that girl, let me be the first to burst your bubble.  I was truly hoping that I would magically turn in to that girl when I got Leukemia ( there have to be some perks, right?).  Well, doggonit, how is it that I can trust God to cure cancer but not to be in control of my bills, my kids grades and friend drama and whether Berkeley gets himself lost in LA and what sports Bennett will play when he gets to high school. HIGH SCHOOL. He isn’t even out of 8th grade yet!!!  Maybe it’s because I absolutely know I have zero control of my cancer, but have somehow convinced myself that if I just work a little harder and mind other people’s business a little better, then maybe I could exercise my control in those areas. This is truly “”self-will run riot”.  Lord, save me from myself and help all of us trust you with all our worries and fears.

My heart is not proud, O lord, my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with its mother is my soul within me…Put your hope in the Lord both now and forevermore. Psalm 131

5 thoughts on “Worry

  1. I think as mothers we all tend to worry when it comes to our children. We can definitely all learn to give up that worry to God. So many people love you and your kids and we are all here to do anything we can for you all. Our God loves all of His children and has plans for your awesome kids. And, if they need any homework help, rides, hang out time, etc., feel free to call or text anytime. Love you all!

  2. Kelly always tells me that most of the things we worry about never happen! Also he always told daughter Lisa don’t cry until you’re hurt which she has related to me so many times….but she is not a mother! You are such a loving, caring person to so many, no wonder you naturally worry and want the best for them. Relax sweet Heather…God will care of you! luv, karen

  3. Just goes to show you can’t always believe everything doctors tell you. They thought you would feel sick and you don’t! That’s showing them…every day you feel well, praise God for that and thank Him. You may not always feel good, but when you do, celebrate it!

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