Have you ever heard the motivational slogan “Don’t give up until the miracle happens”? What miracle is that exactly? I am beginning to think I should give up; give up wishing and hoping for God to work things out according to my Will. Give up holding out for the miracle I ordered. In more simplistic, every-day terms, “things aren’t necessarily going badly, just because they aren’t going my ‘way’”. I pray for specifics on occasion, but I am realizing more and more that I need to hold the outcome loosely. Not because I doubt God’s willingness or ability to give me that exact answer, but because I trust that His answer is based on His ability to see the past, present and future all at once and he knows what’s best for all involved. I only see my tiny sliver of time and the immediate effects of the outcome. He sees ripples that go on for years. And He was involved in all the baby steps and seemingly insignificant choices and events that lead a person to the exact manifestation of their miracle.
And yet, I desperately want Him to just give me my miracle; my way and right this very minute. Sometimes I feel very weary from the waiting. But, when I am spiritually fit, I am fully aware and accepting of the fact that the specific “miracle” I am waiting for may never actually come. Maybe it’s time for me to start noticing the miracles God is providing now rather awaiting in anticipation for the one to come. “Waiting in anticipation” actually makes me sound a bit more mature about it than I really am. My waiting looks more like a spastic, obnoxious, wild-child in the back seat of a car on a long road trip: “Are we there yet? How about now? Or now? How much longer? She’s looking at me again! His feet are on my half of the car!”. The Psalmist sounds pretty similar when he cries out, “How long, Oh Lord?”. What we are really asking when we pose that question to God, is “How long before you give me what I want?”.
Yesterday, as I was considering writing on “not giving up until the miracle happens”, a friend sent me a reading that I took as a sign that God was giving me the thumbs up. It’s from a daily Meditation book appropriately named “24 Hours a Day” and was dated the exact day God had already got me thinking about miracles…”You cannot see the future. It’s a blessing that you cannot. You could not bear to know all the future. That is why God only reveals it to you day by day. The first step each deal is to lay your will before God as an offering, ready for God to do what is best for you. Be sure that, if you trust God, what He does for you will be for the best. The second step is to be confident that God is powerful enough to do anything He wills, and that no miracle in human lives is impossible with Him. Then leave the future to God.”
So, I guess it’s not a bad idea to “not give up until the miracle happens”, but we have a much better chance of experiencing it if we let God choose the miracle that is best for us. And for others. I barely know what’s best for me on most days, and I certainly don’t know what’s best for other people. If I trust Him, He will do “immeasurably more than I could ask or imagine.” His miracles supersede what my mind can even begin to fathom.
Instead of holding out for God to comply with my Will (my desires, my hopes, my miracle requests) for myself and others, maybe, at least for the next 24 hours, I can determine to comply with His.