Category Archives: emotions/emotional

Unpacking the UP-SIDE of SELF

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/canihaveawordwithyou/episodes/UNPACKING-the-Up-Side-of-SELF-e1n30b6 https://youtu.be/rsuvcfD8QWg

A lid of FEAR and DREAD

A friend of ours in California, who shall remain nameless to protect their identity, is a personal bodyguard for a famous celebrity. They actually attended the Golden Globes last weekend. When I found this out, my first reaction was, “It’s a good thing that I am not their bodyguard, because they would definitely be atContinueContinue reading “A lid of FEAR and DREAD”

Disintegration

Life has been pretty chaotic for me the past few months. Some of the chaos was bad—like my son getting hit by a car and all that goes with that. Some of the chaos has been good—like Blake’s mom being here for a week and my mom here for a week shortly after that. ForContinueContinue reading “Disintegration”

Cousin Eddie

I am sitting on the couch in my pajama’s listening to Christmas Carols on my IPAD. I love my living room this time of year. The Christmas tree is in here, there is a beautiful tray with candles and a poinsettia on the coffee table and my piano looks like a Christmas bomb exploded onContinueContinue reading “Cousin Eddie”

Wide Open Like a Lake

Several years ago, before my life as i knew it unraveled, I was on a vacation. I remember, very distinctly, sitting poolside, listening to music on my ipod. A song came on called, “Like a Lake”, by Sarah Groves. It was beautiful, and as I listened, I realized I had no earthly idea what sheContinueContinue reading “Wide Open Like a Lake”

“Live like you were dying”

I’ve been holding on to these stories for a few months. I didn’t really know how to make it something that would help anyone but me, until now. So, before I tell you what I came up with, let me tell you a few stories about how I thought I was going to die: ThisContinueContinue reading ““Live like you were dying””

Detachment…my favorite tool

We have a saying in our household: “our favorite ‘tools’ are a phone and a phonebook.” When something needs a fixn’, we have to call it in. This makes us pretty needy neighbors. We borrow a lot. But, hey, if you need a screw driver or hammer, we’re “here for you.” A couple of yearsContinueContinue reading “Detachment…my favorite tool”

What am I doing wrong?

Ok…this is a sad story. It’s about me, but since it isn’t something I remember saying, I can tell you as if it were someone else and tell you that it breaks my heart that someone would think this. Last time I was in for chemo I was talking with the nurse that was withContinueContinue reading “What am I doing wrong?”

feeling loved…

i woke up sentimental this morning for some reason.  One “activity” i planned for in the hospital was to read all the sweet cards i received from all of you. when i got home from the hospital blake had displayed them all over both our kitchen and giant dining room table! My family had openedContinueContinue reading “feeling loved…”